I cant believe that little baby K is coming in a week from now. So exciting. I cant wait to meet him and I cant wait for Jett to have a little brother. I am so so happy. Cant even explain it.
Now, on for my concern. Chad's wonderful boss is so good to Chad and I. He is always helping pay for his school and things like that. Well, last March he told Chad about a cruise he wanted to send both of us on. It is all paid for and we wont need ANY MONEY for it. Well, I immediately asked when it was and was told November 27 - December 4...UMMMM, thats a negative. My little K will only be two months old. Well, Chad went ahead and told him we would go. Of course I WANT TO GO, but actually going is another thing. Well, I figured I had months to make up my mind. I have been nervous about it for a long time. The other day his Boss called and said the cruise was cancelled for our saftey. I secretly was jumping up and down, problem solved. I didnt have to leave my baby and I wasn't the nasty mean person to make it happen. Well...before I could celebrate too much he said BUT I AM SENDING YOU TO HAWAII INSTEAD! Hawaii, a place I have always wanted to explore. Mexican Cruise I can live without....but Hawaii. It is two days shorter than the cruise and I wont be stuck in the middle of no-where for four days, unable to call my boys. Chad and I cant afford a weekend getaway let alone a Hawaii vacation. I want to go so bad, but my heart isnt in it because of my babies. Jett and little K will be without me. Plus, I breastfeed my babies. What if I cant get enough milk supply saved? What if K doesnt want a bottle? What if he doesnt want me when I come home?
So, my question is...would you leave your two month old for 5 1/2 days? Is 2 months to young? Do you think the breastfeeding will go on without a problem? Help me. I am so excited to go but I am devestated at the thought of it. It consumes my thoughts. I cant leave Jett and Kaleb....
