Makes me cry everytime

My sister Amee loved Jason Aldean. So, naturally, when I heard this song on his new album I BAWLED. I have so many regrets when it comes to my sister. I always had the hope of one day being close to her again. She is 6 years older than me and like any little sister does, I thought she was amazing. She was so fun and at the same time she was so organized and a GREAT MOM (she had her first baby at 18). I loved being around her. I really did. Then, as things changed and certain decisions were made, I had to make the decision to back away but knowing that one day it would go back to how it was. I just didnt realize at the time that "one day" would mean after death. I know we will get that relationship back one day just like I thought I just hate that I waited so long. I chose to miss out on her for more years than I want to admit. I missed having her in my life and my boys life. It was a tough decision and one that at the time seemed so right but now was so wrong. If I only knew then. I'm having a rough go of it lately. Lots of things are reminding me of her. I was walking by a patients room the other day and I heard a voice coming from it that sounded EXACTLY like her. I found an excuse to pull the curtain open a little just to see. DUMB. Of course it wasn't her, but I wanted to see who the person was. I got a video camera from my in-laws and Chad and I have been playing around with it. I was looking back at the videos and in one I SOUNDED JUST LIKE HER and even LOOKED LIKE HER. It made me smile; but, I havent been able to watch it again. Weird how the Christmas right after was easier and this one isn't (I can't believe its been about a year and a half now). I miss the Amee I knew in my heart and I miss the relationship that could be now. One day. One day. I love her and I know she loves me and she loves my boys. 

I can't wait to have a relationship with her again. 

And, all the luckier,

 it will be a perfect relationship because it will be in the most perfect place and perfect time.

Until we meet in another place and time...

Family Pictures

FAVORITE OF JETT

FAVORITE OF KALEB

The talented Kellie Hales took our pictures. And, as Romero luck would have it, we picked a FREEZING cold day and my kids (and Chad) weren't too thrilled. Well, everyone did better than I thought. As shown, a couple melt downs and refusals to cooperate happened, but that's what you get for doing it in the freezing cold winter. We will try again in the spring time. Thanks Kellie!!! (P.S. I really recommend having Kellie take your pictures. She does a REALLY GOOD JOB and was so easy going even when my boys weren't thrilled. We are extremely happy! Message me and I will get you her contact information)

Exactly why I try not to blog stalk too often...

Thanksgiving Pics, Kaleb's funny face and Walmart Santa

 I was horrible at getting pictures on Thanksgiving. All the pics I have are us playing outside and few of us in side. No eating or nothing. BORING!!! 

 This is his face whenever he does something he thinks is neat or if he is going to get in trouble. Its my favorite.

 Santa was at our Walmart and they let you take pictures of them for free. Kaleb didnt know what to think and Jett was excited despite his enthusiastic face in this picture. He really was. 

 We couldnt get a good one with Baby Cakes...