Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Warning: Long post that can be considered TMI
The past couple of days my little Monk has decided that he wants nothing to do with nursing. He spits out his binkie as excited as can be, latches on, and BITES me before pulling away. So, considering that he hasn't nursed in three days and I have never been able to pump (really weird I know, nothing comes out) I am no longer able to breastfeed. But, I am sure Monk doesn't mind. He weaned himself and last night it all hit me. My little boy doesn't want/need me anymore. He is old!!! He's only 11 months, I thought that we had another month together. I struggled with nursing the first two months. It was hard, it hurt, it frustrated me, it worried me that he wasn't getting enough; but, after that I grew to absolutely love it. It was our thing together. I loved holding him in my arms and knowing that I was the only one in the world that could provide him with that. I even secretely enjoyed getting up at 2:00 am in the dark quietness of his room cuddling with him while he nursed. Now, it is all over. I bawled like a baby last night about it. Chad sat there and let me cry in his lap (I could hear him fighting off his laughter). I am sad, but I am know that just being with him everyday and watching him learn and grow is just as amazing. He is the best part about everyday and he continues to melt my heart everyday. So, farewell nursing...until we meet again!!!!
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Cristel, you're a great mommy and Jett will always need you, he's just a becoming a little more independent. What's funny is I have so many friends so excited about not having to breast feed anymore - but, it's also not their first child! Chad's a good man to sit there and let you cry, even if he was trying not to laugh. I can just picture it...and Chad's face!
First off.. You are my hero for "secretely enjoying" those 2am feedings..I couldn't wait till those feedings were history.. Second.. Jett NEEDS you!!! And he will always need you!! You are something no one else is.. His MOM!! And last, but not least! I think you will find the joy in being free from that "job".. Think of all the new things you two can discover.. It's great!
Call us anytime to come play!!
..And Friday will work, but it can't be too late of a show cause I work (pretty much every Saturday) and I get up at 2 am.. Let me know!! I'm game!! I will see if Maris' wants to come..
Also.. Did you go private again??
So sorry.. It's me again.. That post is from my friends blog and she's doing a giveaway.. I was confused too..And I still am kinda confused because now people think I'm giving something away.. I'm not.. Sorry..Just doing what I'm told :)
I think its awesome that you nursed! I love it and wouldn;t have it any other way, and it is kind of sad when people don't even try it! It could be a good thing he weaned himself, atleast your not trying to wean him at 15 months!
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