Dumb Computer

It is no secret that I cuss, but due to my child's ability to say whatever comes out of mine or Chad's mouth (oh, and aunt Kate!) I am working on my swears. But, if I wasnt...I HATE MY DUMMIE COMPUTER!!! It wont let me upload any pictures of the new little Kaleb.
But, until then...

KALEB ROMERO

Born October 7, 2010

Time 7:58 am

Weight 7 lbs 15 oz

Length 19 1/2 inchs

and

BEAUTIFUL

(he has light hair and blue eyes...who would've thunk it with Chad being his daddy!)

Desperately Need Advice...

I cant believe that little baby K is coming in a week from now. So exciting. I cant wait to meet him and I cant wait for Jett to have a little brother. I am so so happy. Cant even explain it.

Now, on for my concern. Chad's wonderful boss is so good to Chad and I. He is always helping pay for his school and things like that. Well, last March he told Chad about a cruise he wanted to send both of us on. It is all paid for and we wont need ANY MONEY for it. Well, I immediately asked when it was and was told November 27 - December 4...UMMMM, thats a negative. My little K will only be two months old. Well, Chad went ahead and told him we would go. Of course I WANT TO GO, but actually going is another thing. Well, I figured I had months to make up my mind. I have been nervous about it for a long time. The other day his Boss called and said the cruise was cancelled for our saftey. I secretly was jumping up and down, problem solved. I didnt have to leave my baby and I wasn't the nasty mean person to make it happen. Well...before I could celebrate too much he said BUT I AM SENDING YOU TO HAWAII INSTEAD! Hawaii, a place I have always wanted to explore. Mexican Cruise I can live without....but Hawaii. It is two days shorter than the cruise and I wont be stuck in the middle of no-where for four days, unable to call my boys. Chad and I cant afford a weekend getaway let alone a Hawaii vacation. I want to go so bad, but my heart isnt in it because of my babies. Jett and little K will be without me. Plus, I breastfeed my babies. What if I cant get enough milk supply saved? What if K doesnt want a bottle? What if he doesnt want me when I come home?

So, my question is...would you leave your two month old for 5 1/2 days? Is 2 months to young? Do you think the breastfeeding will go on without a problem? Help me. I am so excited to go but I am devestated at the thought of it. It consumes my thoughts. I cant leave Jett and Kaleb....

Just What I needed today!

(mute my music at the bottom of the page!)

I saw this on a friends blog and for some reason the minute I heard Jeffrey Hollands voice it made me start to cry. I hadnt really even heard what said at first. I feel like I have been missing a great part of my life since I started working every sunday morning. I miss going to church and being with my boys there. I do go to the sacrament meeting at the hospital. It is so great that they even do it. It is a half hour long sacrament meeting that really adds to my day, but I miss what going with my familiy brings to me and I miss going to all the meetings. Also, lately I have struggled with my role of in life. No, I dont struggle with being a mom. But, I struggle with how important it is and I have been second guessing myself a lot. I love Jett so much and I worry about the little man I am creating. Am I teaching him everything? Am I stimulating his curiousity in the world and God correctly? Those type of things. This really helped me understand and feel a peace within myself I havent for a long time. I think since my Sister died I have been in a funk trying to comprehend how precious this life is and how important it is to live it correctly. So, thanks Natalie for posting this to your blog. It helped me today more than anything. I love being a mommy and wife and I love knowing that God loves me being both without being anything more. I am so blessed to know of the gospel.

****FYI****

In case you didnt notice I will point it out....LOOK AT MY BABY TICKER! He is head down. Oh, how excited that makes me. Means he is coming soon. 5 MORE WEEKS. Set the C-Day for October 8th. Hurray!!!!! Cant wait.

Amee Ann

(Amee, KayDee, Cal, Me and Mistee)

Our Parents got a divorce when I was about this age. This is us five all together. We sure where cute then. Oh, how life changes Ü

Amee & Me

My Favortie Picture of Amee (oldie but a goodie)

When I was little I used to want to be Amee. She was so pretty. I wanted her curly hair and I thought she was so cool. She was so good to me. She pretty much had to be my mother when I went to visit my mom. She really was a caring person. I seriously thought she was the neatest person when I was little. She made the best Christmas candy. My favorite was her homemade suckers. I vowed that when I was "old like her" I would make them too. I havent tried yet, so this Christmas be prepared for some homemade suckers!!! Instead of focusing on my regrets when it came to mine and her relationship I am going to focus on the greats. I truely love her.

Loss

This past week my oldest sister passed away unexpectedly at the age of 32. I really cant even understand it yet. It drives me insane when I stop and think that she is gone from this earth and gone from her three beautiful boys. I love her and I know that she now knows of the love that everyone has for her and how much her Father in Heaven and her Savior love her. She will do great things I am sure now that she is with them. Sorry to share my feelings on here but I needed to get them out even if it is just a small little post. One day we will all experience death and I am sure it will be only then that I realize just how lucky my sister is. I am so glad I know of the gospel and the plan of salvation and that I KNOW of my Savior and his love. To all my family; I love you. Let us all remember to say that a little more. I know I wish I would have to Amee.

Brother Bear

Not the best quality because I dont have a scanner but here he is. Our perfect little man. It is still very strange to me that I have ANOTHER baby to gush over and I am nervous about how I will balance my time. Jett is my best friend and I hope he remembers that. Both of my boys (or should I say all three, gotta count Chad) are so precious and I hope I can treat them all as such. We are getting so excited ♥

Little Cowboy

Doesn't he just make you smile. He was telling the horse to "id up" the entire time. So cute. He looks so much like a Fitzwater in this picture. Reminds me of my Dad Ü

Cutest Kid?

I THINK YES!!!!

I was going through some papers and Jett yelled "Mamma" so I turned around and found this cute little thing staring back at me. He thought wearing Mr. Potato Head's glasses was the funniest thing and so did I. I cant get enough of this boy.